urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:germany1987 but its how you explore which makes you unique germany1987 2007-01-14T12:00:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:germany1987:1359 2007-01-14T12:00:10Z 2007-01-14T12:00:10Z Its the @nd semester of my sophmore year of college... I have a 3.8 <br />no roommate... and a wonderful boyfriend and friends... I love them all...<br />I think Im doing pretty decent for myself.. all those kids in highschool who wouldnt talk to me or were ever mean will one day learn their lesson, that people are real and have feelings, heck Im smarter than what half of them will ever be. I have also lost alot of weight since highschool... and Ive improved upon my looks quite a bit... <br />but of everything... Ive found myself... and Im beginning to love myself...<br />whereas before, I didnt.... <br />I love u all<br />Jess urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:germany1987:1226 2006-11-21T03:09:12Z 2006-11-21T03:09:12Z I had a great time tonight. This even after class, one of the girls from CC came and picked Lydia, Kristen and I up and we all went back to one of the other girls apartment. We had a mock thanksgiving dinner! It was fun to sit around and talk and basically fellowship. It was nice to be with girls and relax. I didnt think about school or work, just talked. There were alot of other girls there from the different bible studies on campus and they were all very nice and one girl made an awesome greenbean casserole... yummm<br />well Im going to bed soon<br />goodnight<br />-Jess<br /><br />I love the holidays urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:germany1987:622 2006-11-14T15:03:22Z 2006-11-14T15:03:22Z ok, sooo I was walking back from class today when out of no where some guy comes up to me and is like "whats your name?" me-"Uhmm jess" him-"Im nolan, sis u go to EG?" ok so Im kind of confused b/c Ive never seen this kid in my life. me-"uhm yes" him- " ME 2! Ive seen you around!" then we chatted for a min, apparently he lives in holshouser and such. I just thought it an odd coincidence. well I need sleep, I almost fell over in my his class this morning.<br />ooo thursday I might get to go to this christmas/thanksgiving party, Im really excited. Ellis wants me to skip it and hang out with him, and I mean I want to spend time with him, but I never get to hang out with just girls. So I dunno yet, well nap time<br />-Jess urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:germany1987:284 2006-11-13T05:19:36Z 2006-11-13T05:19:36Z Soooo Im up late... really late, well not too bad, but I have an 8 am class. Its chem lab. YUCK! I have all of these classes that do not apply to my major...well I can kind of understand chemistry...<br />I am going for nursing.<br />I hope I get into the program... I know I will be good. They just have to let me in.<br />Im trying to become closer with God...but its so hard. Its like a giant windstorm blows and blows and keeps trying to push u back, but you just have to grit your teeth and dig your feet into the ground and push forward. Its so hard well the world envelopes you in its furious windstorm... I have come to terms with many of these little and big gusts. Ellis and I (my boyfriend of 2 yrs) have stopped having sex. (This was my decision not his). Its holding me back, and I know its wrong. I also dont want to end up pregnant. I cant deal with that and school right now.<br />Sooo Ellis and I had our 2 yr anniversary on the 2nd... It was really bad. We usually always get along...but not tha day... he was picking fights with me all day...and ended up making me cry. Turns out, he blew all his money on poker... and he was mad at himself and took it out on me. but we have it worked out. Its just that sometimes.... It still hurts. I mean 2 yrs is a big deal.<br />but sometimes, you just have to forgive and forget.<br />-Jess